Eight! Your Eight!

Today my sweet boy you are 8! I have to admit I have I’ve cried a few tears today. This year it hit me the hardest. You are so grown up! The years are going by just to fast my sweet boy and I’m doing everything I can to soak them up. .

You have changed so much this last year into a confidant, talkative, responsible boy.  You have lost your baby face and must have grown a foot taller it seems.  You are no longer little and seem as if you don’t need me, but you will forever be my little boy.

I have no idea where the years have gone.  It is so true that the days are long, but the years are so short.  As I am writing this my eyes are filled with tears, fore the years have seemed to pass so quickly.  Time continues to rush by, and you continue to grow. You are a constant reminder of just how precious life is.

You are the one who made me a mother. You have changed me forever and have taught me more about life in these seven years then I could have ever imagined. I am the one that is suppose to be teaching you, but I feel that you have already taught me more then I’ll ever be able to teach you.  The list is endless of what I have learned from you, but what I am most thankful for is you helping me to believe in something greater then all of us.  To have hope and faith above all else. You have taught me to follow my heart and my gut and to fight for what I believe is possible even if others don’t. The day I had you changed me forever, and I am such a better person today because of you.

I am truly amazed and beyond proud of all you have accomplished, all of the struggles that you have overcome throughout your life already, and the struggles that you still work through everyday with such determination and patience. You are so strong in so many ways and you don’t even know it.

The last eight years have been like no other and I would not change a moment of them. Becoming you mom has made me a better person, I learned more about patience, and understanding.  Becoming your mother has made me see life so differently. I am now aware of the fleeting moments, moments I want to hold on to forever. Moments I wish I could bottle up and relive another day. I am now so much more aware that some people see the world so differently. Seeing the world through you and being in your world is so beautiful. You are the light that shines on the darkest of days.  You make life so much better.

Everyday I take a moment to just look at you. To soak up your sweetness, to catch a glimpsee of that little dimple or to wait for that funny little giggle you have at time; you know the one where you have a little squeal to it.  I try to cuddle you and kiss you and squeeze you like I use to and you look at me and say something like “can you just go now” or “ok, ok, ok mommy that is all, you can stop.”  I can’t stop though. I just can’t. You will forever be my baby boy and I still cant believe you are mine. I love all of our cuddles and kisses. All of our kisses…Eskimo Kisses, butterfly kisses, pucker kisses, special kisses, and your favorite poop kisses…I still cant believe you named that kiss a poop kiss, oh my silly boy.  It seems that now life is so crazy we don’t have time for any of that. You have grown and are more independent and not needing all of that attention.  I want you to know that those moments are ones I cherish deeply.

These last eight years its been so much of just you and I. Our days have been filled with school and therapy, but also of so much fun, laughing, singing, dancing, tickling, and love, and I would not trade a moment of it.  I will cherish all of these moments that I have had with you and all of the moments to come forever.

Trying to choose just one recent picture of you to post today was so hard until I asked you what your favorite color was for a gift idea. I thought you were going to say blue. Instead you said “All of them! I love all of them. They are all so special. Different, but special.” And yes I teared up and thought of the many kite pictures we took this summer. You were so set on buying a rainbow kite, but I never asked why. My sweet boy…to understand that everything is special even though it’s different is so amazing! I remember our talks, how you worry about being different and I’m so thankful and happy that you realize different is perfect! You are so amazing! I’m so blessed! Happy birthday my bear! I love you to the moon and back, always and forever and more then all of the stars in the sky! Happy Happy 8th Birthday my beautiful boy!